Booki Chapter15
Sliding In, Falling Out
Static crackles between the two of
He doesn’t speak.
Us
He doesn’t move.
He doesn’t do anything but stare at me.
His eyes capture mine, and everything slides away. Nothing else exists, just him.
A chemical reaction of the purest, simplest elements merge together, creating something that feels combustible. This moment will always loiter in my mind. This one real moment between the two of us without witnesses.
He begins to step toward me, one long stride at a time. Watching, he inhales deeply, eyes closing, a shudder quivering his muscles. Another step toward me, his hands shake like my heart. Core muscles tighten. My tendons are taut, my bones quaking with the assault inside my body. His muscles are contracting, causing spasms under his exposed skin. Another step toward me. I can actually hear his erratic heartbeat inside his chest. Our bodies sync
actually hear his with each other.
Bliss so pure runs up my spine, wrapping around my shoulders, hugging me in its embrace.
my
I let my eyes caress every curve, every edge of his body. I try to ingrain every detail of skin, the curve of his lips, broad shoulders, muscular neck…. scent giving off just how much I appreciate what’s standing in front of me. His eyes are blazing bright green, the desire pouring off him in waves. He
sucks a breath in
This is how it should have been for us…this moment. This is what was meant to happen.
Finally, he’s standing right in front of me. His head angles down, and my head angles up, eyes not leaving each other. His violent shivers shake the both of us. Just an inch separates our bodies. Dipping his head down toward my neck, he inhales. Growls vibrate his expanding chest as they percuss into mine.
My heart flutters wildly, and his nose almost touches my flesh. Lips are so close to my skin, and his fingertip almost touches me, just hovering waiting…Can he feel my breath on them? He pulls himself away, just a step back, but it feels like we’re now standing miles apart. If I were quick enough, I could claim him now. No one would look down on that…except him.
Opening up his mouth, letting a long breath out, he looks me in the eyes. By the way he is squaring his shoulders, I know this is going to hurt.
“I love her, but I can’t stop myself from wanting you. I can’t stop myself from wanting to touch you. I want to stop myself, but I can’t. His agony hurts my ears with the pain he’s feeling, the conflict his body and mind are waging within himself.
“She’s what I love, but you’re what I need.” He takes another long inhale into his lungs, and his eyes close for just a fraction of a moment before they open into the color of a deep dark forest canopy. My turn to reach for him, fingertips extending, but he’s standing just a feather’s breath too far.
“I don’t want to hurt her,” he whispers. “What about me?” I ask him back.
He can’t answer me.
My heartbreaks.
The magic between us fades.
“I understand Clayton.” His fists clench, his canines descend, and his jaw start to take on an irregular shape as his muscles start shifting into his wolf’s form. He gives a grunt, shaking his head back and forth, pain etched across his face. He’s trying to prevent a shift from happening, fighting with his wolf
nature
“Stop.”
He says this out loud, not to me, but to himself before his face goes back to his skin side.
“She’s always been there. She’s all I have ever known. Ever had.” He’s trying to explain himself,
“I have known no one, I counter back. He nods his head at me as if he can even grasp the understanding of this. He has someone,
“I grew up with her. She was my first kiss, my first love, my first everything.” His eyes aren’t leaving me; his truth is killing me.
“I never had a first kiss. I never had a first love. I never had any of that. I was saving all of that for you.” His eyes close, looking so pained.
“I’m so sorry,” he quavers. My hand goes over my mouth, a sob trying to escape from my hand that’s trying to keep my cries silent, trying with every crunce of dignity to control myself…just can’t.
“What’s so wrong with me?I could have been everything to you.. “The words are hardly recognizable with the crack of my voice, the sobs pouring out. My chest burns with the emotions I’mfeeling
“Rya, nothing is wrong with you. You’re perfect in every single way. It’s me.” He touches his heart. “Ijust can’t let her go, but I can’t stop myself from being herewith you” He clutches the material of his shirt in his hand. I want to be that material.
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